i'm so dramatic i can't think of a good title to this.

You know what happens when I am procrastinating?

 A whole lot of stuff. Cleaning, Laundry, Blog Posts, and lots of thinking.

 I'm so tired of the negatives of life. I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of trying, and forgetting, and letting go, and being hard on myself.

 But really, I think that sometimes we get so wrapped up in our lives and in our struggles we forget to open the window and just take in the beauty around us. I get it, we're busy, I'm busy, life is busy. But what would happen if we all just spent some time alone, and just reflected on our lives?

 Sure, things aren't perfect, and I'm the queen of complaining.

 But today I was thinking about all the stuff I need to do, and stuff I need to fix, and all the millions of things I'm not good at, and some things I really screwed up, and I realized I needed to stop. I need to stop beating myself up over things.

 That's why this whole journey I'm on is good. I need to keep talking about things that have happened to me, and I need to keep healing. If not for myself, then for my daughters someday. For my friends who have talked me through my panicky moments, who have cried with me, and who have been the light in my darkness. And for my Savior, who is always by my side.