Grandparents and the hand of the Lord

I went to my grandparents house Tuesday and Wednesday of last week. I was really touched by how much they love me and have done for me throughout my life. Perhaps i could go as far to say that it was their influence who taught me to see God and Jesus Christ in my life. What touched me though was my grandmother's humble prayers for me and others she cares for. My grandmother prays for me by name each day, possibly even multiple times a day. As I listened to her pray, the Spirit washed over me and revealed to me that she had prayed for me everyday of my entire life. It humbled me, and I began to understand a little better what true charity and kindness was. I mean, where would I be without those prayers? Without my grandparents loving examples in my life? I am so blessed to have grown up close to them and to have had them influence my life like they have. Honestly, they have truly acted as my rescuers. Never forcing me to believe but loving me so that I felt God's love. I am grateful for them and their examples. True charity is loving others in such a way as to lead them to the only One who can see them for who they truly are. How blessed are we to have such a loving Father to guide us and love us!!!

my toes are sunburt

I went tubing today, the only part of my body that is sun burnt is my toes.

Despite this, I had a really good day, and I feel really good that I spent the day in the sunshine. <3 I love it. I am really hungry though. I'm not sure why. I'm not eating either, gotta start being more healthy. Snacking at 10pm is never a good idea.

I'm not really sure what I'm writing about today, I'm just writing what comes to mind. Its not like many people read this anyway. haha. I could say whatever I want and it wouldn't make any difference.

Here is something I've been thinking about lately... I really feel like the congregation I go to of my church is too social. Which isn't bad at all, I just feel like I am always just outside of the social circles. Never really included, but not really excluded either.. I'm not sure how to explain it. But like.. when I hang out with people, I'm not really included in conversations, and I sometimes feel like it doesn't matter whether or not I'm there.. I guess just sort of like I don't have a significant role in the friendships. I guess I'm just unnoticed, and that really does bother me, because I do my best to notice and include everyone. Maybe this is me being selfish, and me making my own problems. I mean... I know my Heavenly Father loves me, and I am trying to let this go, and just focus on other things, but like... how do you not focus on it when you are constantly reminded of it? I'm missing the point of all of this...


Ehhh. I feel like talking, but I don't have anyone to call. I don't want to be a burden. haha.

I wanna focus on happy things. So here is my list of happy things. :)

1. I am starting a new job soon! Its going to be a great opportunity! :)
2. I am going to go and see my class next week, and they always make me happy. :)
3. my best friend who moved to california in middle school is moving back to ATX!!!
4. Summer=more time to crochet
5. I'm going to do lots of volunteering this summer.
6. i get to see my aunt from florida in June! <3
7. HALF PRICE BOOKS ONCE A WEEK!