the temporary.

I have to remind myself sometimes that trials are temporary. And that sometimes friendships, opportunities, and situations are too.

I just get so discouraged. And I already know that this is exactly what works on me. Satan knows if I get discouraged that I will freeze up. Better yet, he knows that if he makes me feel like I'm not good enough I won't do anything, AND I'll push people who care about me away.

But I made a promise a long time ago that I am going to keep. I will keep going, and I'll do what it takes to be my best self. Even with all my flaws, insecurities, and unhappiness. I am going to stay on the path that I'm on, because I know without a shadow of a doubt that its where I need to be right now.

God is great, and institute tonight was a great reminder of the places that I need to be and the vision I need to have for my life. I got to talk to my institute teacher a little bit after IC meeting tonight. And I was asking him why its so hard to deal with things that are temporary. Temporary life situations, temporary trials, temporary friends, and he said to turn to the scriptures, and tell him about examples of people who endured temporary trials and asked me what they did. I thought of Nephi, Abinadi, Joseph Smith, ---they just had to endure.

I was thinking on the way home.. that like.. even Christ being on the Earth in a physical sense was temporary. He left the apostles, the people of Jerusalem, and the people of Nephi when He had other things to be doing. He had to move on as well, and keep being about His Father's work. He knew that He would always be there for us, and even if He isn't here physically, His atonement is very real and would be more than enough to sustain us through all of our trials. And in that way He could be there for us.

Then I realized that all of my favorite passages of scripture come from times when Christ is about to leave and move onto His next work. 3 Nephi 17, and John 16 (Christ is a few chapters away from being Crucified) etc. I guess I like that Christ remembers to assure us that He will not forget or forsake us and that we are not alone in our trials. Its a beautiful reminder.

We are in God's care, and even though its hard, things will get better. :) Gotta look for the small moments of happiness.