So I got home taught yesterday and I was thinking about how thankful that I am for the Priesthood Power in my life. I hadn't been home taught for a while, and I was starting to feel really overwhelmed with my life and with all the things that were going on. Given, most of this is all self-inflicted. Most of it I CHOSE. I CHOSE to quit my job, and to say not very nice things to friends, and I chose to be hurt when my friends left the church. I even choose to feel hurt when my mom, sister, and brother bash me for believing.

But I really needed the power of the gospel in my life. I needed someone to let me know "Hey, its hard right now, but if you push through this there ARE blessings ahead." It meant alot to me to have my home teacher look me in the eye and really let me know I was loved and that my Heavenly Father was looking out for me. That all my sacrifices, and trials would be for my own good. I mean I read it in the scriptures all the time, that all my trials will pass, and that everything is recognized before the Lord. But I think it was truly what I needed at the time, someone to sit in front of me and let me know that all the things I was struggling with were known before the Lord, and that things would be okay. I don't think I've had that kind of conversation with anyone since my best friend Andy went on his mission last August.

How grateful I am for good home teachers and friends in my life. It means alot to me to have their influences in my life. Especially because my dad passed away. I feel an overwhelming gratitude toward the men in my life who step up and encourage, protect, and believe in me. There is something really powerful in a man who follows the promptings of the Spirit, and one who is righteous and respects both his place and my place in God's creation. I will be forever indebted to the Bishops, Home Teachers, and Friends who step up to listen and encourage. It is such a reflection of God's love for me, and not just that, but His love for His children.. all of them.

It encourages me to do better.

I heard the phrase again today, "Say your prayers morning and night, study sciptures that inspire you.." It is repeated in EVERY blessing and prayer that is about me. I really need to start working on that.

Well I will definitely do my best! <3

-Beth