my toes are sunburt

I went tubing today, the only part of my body that is sun burnt is my toes.

Despite this, I had a really good day, and I feel really good that I spent the day in the sunshine. <3 I love it. I am really hungry though. I'm not sure why. I'm not eating either, gotta start being more healthy. Snacking at 10pm is never a good idea.

I'm not really sure what I'm writing about today, I'm just writing what comes to mind. Its not like many people read this anyway. haha. I could say whatever I want and it wouldn't make any difference.

Here is something I've been thinking about lately... I really feel like the congregation I go to of my church is too social. Which isn't bad at all, I just feel like I am always just outside of the social circles. Never really included, but not really excluded either.. I'm not sure how to explain it. But like.. when I hang out with people, I'm not really included in conversations, and I sometimes feel like it doesn't matter whether or not I'm there.. I guess just sort of like I don't have a significant role in the friendships. I guess I'm just unnoticed, and that really does bother me, because I do my best to notice and include everyone. Maybe this is me being selfish, and me making my own problems. I mean... I know my Heavenly Father loves me, and I am trying to let this go, and just focus on other things, but like... how do you not focus on it when you are constantly reminded of it? I'm missing the point of all of this...


Ehhh. I feel like talking, but I don't have anyone to call. I don't want to be a burden. haha.

I wanna focus on happy things. So here is my list of happy things. :)

1. I am starting a new job soon! Its going to be a great opportunity! :)
2. I am going to go and see my class next week, and they always make me happy. :)
3. my best friend who moved to california in middle school is moving back to ATX!!!
4. Summer=more time to crochet
5. I'm going to do lots of volunteering this summer.
6. i get to see my aunt from florida in June! <3
7. HALF PRICE BOOKS ONCE A WEEK!