procrastination--i'm a rock star

I think that one of two things is wrong with my life right now,

Either-- I'm so good at procrastinating that I don't realize when I'm doing it, or I just don't have enough time to do everything I need to do. Either way, I am behind, and I'm so behind in fact that I decided to write a blog about it. Just to make me feel better.

Alright, I'm not that far behind, I just have some big project deadlines that I'm flirting with, and I am feeling desperate to get to the end of all of them. I know I am not alone in this desperation, and I know things will be fine, but I am definitely feeling the pressure.



Because Conference was a week ago, I have been taking some time to re-evaluate my life and where I stand on my goals and on my plans for my own life. Like everyone else my age, I want a clearer picture of what is going to happen with my life, and more than that, I want a clearer picture of what it is the that Lord would have me do in my life. I know I'm supposed to teach, and that someday I will be a mother and wife, but I'm missing the time table. In a year, I'll be graduating, and possibly planning to go on a mission. There is only one person who knows when all these things will happen, and that's Heavenly Father. Its just hard to plan when I have no idea what I'm planning for. Its like that scripture in Nephi--- "And I was led by the Spirit, not knowing beforehand the things which I should do." Only... I really really really want to know. I probably should focus on being more patient...

I am lucky though, over the past few days the Lord has really made his presence known in my life. Specific questions that I wanted answered have been answered, and things that I have been struggling with have been resolved. But I'm finding a whole slew of new things that I feel the Lord wants me to change about myself, and a pretty clear picture of the Daughter I'm supposed to be, just kind of missing the road map-- and the tools to get myself there. I think the Lord is waiting for me to make a decision and stick to it before he reveals anything else to me. But I am not sure which is the path that I'll be of the most use... soo I guess I need to figure out which one I feel led to, and then stick to it.

What else is going on in my world?

I'll list a few...

1)Working
2)reading eragon-- still
3)saving $$
4)church hopping-- I just want to see the different types of worship.. not changing religions or anything
5)transient friend phase
6)summer jobs...
7)blue-bonnets
8)lots of school
9)readinggg book of mormon (lots)
10)catching up on conference -- i missed two sessions cuz i had to work on sat.

and lots of other stuff.
that i'm too lazy to list.
<3

-Beth