Welllll

I think there is something wrong with my car. Its bad.. my car shakes super bad, and it gets worse when I drive faster. My mom gave me some money to get it looked at, but I feel really bad taking it. She doesn't have much money to start with. I really need to start working on saving money better. Granted its hard, being a college student--especially a college student in an education internship. I feel like I am spending alot of money on "necessary" supplies. I think that the point is to invest in some good starter classroom stuff.. I won't write my "but" here, as what I was about to say wasn't very positive.

My cohort adviser made this awesome point in class today.. She was talking about being nice, and being nice and showing love to those we may not get along with, and treating them like they are our best friends. She said "Its not that much harder to be nice, and to go the extra mile. Most things that are nice only take a few minutes to do." It really stuck out to me. I am going to strive to diligently take the "extra time" to be nice. I experimented a little with it today and it seemed to work well. Mostly I found that the more open and humble you are with others, the more you can be kind.

Actually I have a really cool observation about my classes.... All of them are going to require me to think critically, and really examine myself in ways that I haven't done before. But most of them coincide with things that I have already made goals to do in my life, but its interesting... I can already foresee the changes that are going to be necessary for me to be successful, its just about working hard to achieve them. I need to bust out of my shell. I need to become more confident in my sense of self, because if I'm not comfortable with that, than I am going to struggle to have the presence that I need to have in a classroom. I think part of it is to learn to be affluent and express what my opinions are in a way that is non-threatening.

That's the part that I struggle with.. I really struggle with expressing opinion in group settings, and with people who I don't trust. I'm getting better though, I actually have tried speaking up during class, and its working.. kinda. Lol. Its going to take practice but I think I'll get the hang of not being afraid to speak up and say what I think.

I AM SO TIRED, and my internship has just begun. This semester is going to be killer... but I'm excited. I love my cohort so far, and I am so glad to be in the cohort I'm in. My advisor is such a wise woman. Practical, No-nonsense, but fair, and kind. She is reasonable, and doesn't waste our time. We all are placed individually in classrooms, unlike most cohorts, which helps us to grow more independently and in a different way than our peers. I am excited to grow and change this semester. I am so blessed to have the opportunities I do. <3 God is so awesome. :)